I have had a lot on my mind lately, and no time to take time to get it out.
School has been incredibly chaotic- and its the time of year where deadlines are fast approaching. Some days I am incredibly optimistic and I know I can make through it; other days I am ready to drop out all together- and hide under a rock. Besides this stress, I have had people in my life that I considered to be a good friend get mad that I never have time to hang out with her- more that she thinks that I don't WANT to hang out with her. Although that is as far from the truth as it can be, it hurts to think that she thinks I have devalued our friendship that much. My schedule is incredibly hectic this year, and my free time is at a minimum. When I am done at the end of the day, I want to go home at 8 or 9 pm after a long day, hang out with husband, do homework, and do it all over again the next day. When I have free nights on the weekend, I take time to myself to relax or chill. It is in no way a reflection of our friendship. I am sad and sorry that this is what it is to you.
I have decided to run a half-marathon. I always set a lot of lofty goals, but they are never ME centered goals they always are good for something else or someone else. I have been really consistent running a minimum of 4 days a week and cross training at least one day a week. I am feeling great- I have never felt so good about myself. I have been keeping track of my workouts, my food intake, and just feel good. I feel like this goal is so far away, but that I will actually be able to do something selfishly for myself. I don't care if I am first or last as long as I finish.
I am thankful for friends. I have some really awesome ones. Ones that would do anything for me, and understand who I am and what I stand for. Who respect my life goals and will build me up on my bad days.
On another note, my wedding pictures are back today. Mike is picking them up as we speak! I cannot wait to post them and share them with all!